We’re going to be getting into summer months soon and that means long days at the beach, barbecues, ice cold beers, and laughter. But, it seems that my country is not going to get there. We had rain storms today, and even hail at some point. I’m amazed by how sad the weather has been the last couple months. Will we get a sunny summer at all? I’m glad that in about a month I will be on the west coast of America to celebrate summer with my boy. So, I know for sure that there will be sun, barbecues and ice cold beers!

I am very excited, because this weekend is my birthday and I’m turning 20. Last two years I’ve been spending my birthday in Paris with a bunch of people. But this year I am going to enjoy my day surrounded by my family and friends. Also I am going to have lunch with my friend tomorrow whose   birthday is on the same day too. So that’s pretty much what’s going on. And that’s where I’m going to end my short story. Have a pretty day!

Hey folks. It’s Wednesday, and that means we are halfway through this week.  I’m currently writing this while sitting on the train and staring out of my window. It’s my birthday in a couple days, and honestly I’ve never experienced this cold weather during the end of May. I don’t like that we can’t sit outside and enjoy a nice warm breeze while celebrating another year of my life. But apparently that’s what will happen this Saturday. Am I excited? Yes, I am excited to turn 20 and close the teenage chapter of my life. I’m growing fonder every day/year, and becoming more independent and experiencing more responsibilities makes me realize it’s time to get my life together and move to a new chapter of being an adult. Where will I be in now and ten years? It’s exciting and frightening at the same time. But, I know I don’t have to do this alone, and that comforts me from the inside out.

Today two of the new books I’m going to read came in. I am curious what they will teach me, and also how I will reflect them in my life. One of the books is from John Piper whom inspired me a lot during the years I got to know him. I also ordered a book from C.S. Lewis which touched my heart several times by different quotes. It’s that through reading books I improve my knowledge a lot and that makes me feel confident about speaking about different subjects when people ask me questions. Well, it actually gives me a lot of confidence when I speak about the gospel and how it touched my heart over the years. I remember the times when I truly didn’t know if God exist, even though I’ve been raised as a Christian. It is very important to experience all these things in your own life too before you accept this Jesus as your savior. And it’s not always easy to live a life after Him. You struggle, fall deep; will mourn about your life. But in the end it’s only Him who will give you salvation. At least, that’s how I experience it.

I can imagine how hard it is for you as a non Christian to read these words and not feel touched by them. I’ve been in that place too. I’ve been there where you are, and thought faith and religion where bullshit. But I am so glad I found my way back to God, or better said, God came back in my life. He was the one who made this happen. And I am thankful. Through my pain and despair, I am thankful. What a wonderful thing to write down.